before i forg[o]t

February 14th, 2009 by biochem06-treas
[i got this from my other journal which i posted 2 years ago, around the month of February too..]
emma
some things a lot of people don’t know about me:
1. i love reading books - textbook vs novels? i’d choose novels. sorry snell.
2. i say what’s on my mind - [one-fourth] taklesa, [one-fourth] bratinella.
3. i love to argue - not intentionally. i just love to debate. some mind game i’m playing
4. you can’t make me do what you want unless i wanna do it too [sometimes]
5. i treasure my friends greatly - and try to remember their birthdays!
6. generous akong magbigay ng regalo - i don’t mind kahit mahal pero dapat within the budget
7. i wanna go nature tripping!
8. i dream of being a doctor with this kind of schedule: mon-thurs (clinic/hosp), fri-charity work (free-check up), sat&sun-personal days; well of course 9-3 lang ang working hours ko.
9. my dream car is not a rolls royce, a mercedes (it was before), a prosche, nor even a bmw. what i want is a hybrid car equipped with airbags. nature-friendly.
10. i hate politics. very much. [- even if i've had my share of experience being in office]
11. mahilig akong magpalusot pero it’s never obvious [to some] . i’m not saying na mahilig akong mag-imbento ng rason ha!
12. i wanna be a model. kaso kulang sa height.
13. i love to sing (perform) in gatherings.
14. i’d like to have a garage-built band. and for that matter i would love to know how to play the drums, the [electric] guitar, and piano (professionally). [- still looking for someone to teach me, for free  :D]
15. i’d like to be a versatile and [a] talented musician. i wanna be able to sing and at the same time play [an instrument].
16. i’d love to go on stage and be an actress in plays. and no, i’m not talking about showbiz. [- this is why i like musicals]
17. i love shoes! those sexy and notorious looking things! kaso i have to save money first.
18. i wanna go to europe and visit places i’ve read in novels. of course i do wanna visit the states so i can cook dishes [those ingredients you only see there] just like those cooking shows i watch!
19. i’d like to have a very marvelous kitchen, a nice garden, a pool, and syempre, dogs!
20. i love mind-boggling games. [- mindmaster, anyone?]
21. i dream of having my own library. yung parang katulad nung sa beauty and the beast. [- this is one of the reasons why i love that cartoon]
22. i dream of attending a ball, wearing a balloon gown, glass slippers and having my own carriage. [- just for experience]
23. i wanna have a debut whose theme is anime cosplay. :D and i’d dress up as sakura (the dress she wore sa 2nd opening-platina)
24. i half-wanted to be a librarian kahit working student lang. i like shelving books, arranging them by code, and stamping those library cards. [o-c ba?]
25. i wanna be an auror. pero pwede rin superhero, someone with superpowers (storm, rogue, wondergirl, jean gray, etc.)… [may term dito si honey, i forgot what that [it] was!]

what he said

October 10th, 2008 by biochem06-treas

“Declare the past, diagnose the present, foretell the future; practice these acts. As to diseases, make a habit of two things — to help, or at least to do no harm.”

What Hippocrates said. (Epidemics Bk. I, Sect. XI)

the love doctor

August 30th, 2008 by biochem06-treas

okay, fine. i admit. i am not the doctor in the matters of the heart (abstract), rather i am the one needing help.

yes, it is true. it is also true that love comes your way when you least expect it. love comes along when you stop trying so hard to look for it. maybe it’s God’s way of saying, "hey, don’t stress yourself out! i’ll handle this for you, so stop making things hard for yourself by looking and looking…"

so yes, i have stopped looking, because i am tired of looking. i am tired of having to suffer broken dreams, shattered expectations, and false hopes. *sigh* but i also do think that God has a reason and has a purpose for me why i’ve failed many times in my search for love. but then, actually, i have not failed in that quest. i’ve found love, love that i hadn’t been acknowledging and hadn’t been thankful for for years.

"…the search was over, love was right before my eyes."

A physician (bow)

July 3rd, 2008 by biochem06-treas

Tact, sympathy, and understanding are expected of the physician, for the patient is no mere collection of symptoms, signs, disordered functions, damaged organs, and disturbed emotions.

The patient is human, fearful, and hopeful, seeking relief, help, and reassurrance.

10 feet off the ground

May 28th, 2008 by biochem06-treas

wonder why i keep playing this mp3. know what i think? …

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I’m holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I’m hearing what you say
But I just can’t make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait…
You tell me that you’re sorry
Didn’t think I’d turn around and say…

That it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late

I’d take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that’s nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it’s turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the Angel Heaven let me think was you,
But I’m afraid

I’m holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground…

Leo’s

May 27th, 2008 by biochem06-treas

know what they say about Leo’s?

they’re…

loyal

faithful

which is why they are terribly turned off by lies and deceit.

hmm.. makes sense.

makes a LOT of sense.

bjay2

May 27th, 2008 by biochem06-treas

yes, the Lord has His purpose..but we should also have a purpose when we do the things we do. otherwise, what and why do we do it then?

i know the Lord has a plan for me and has His reasons why these things have happened to me. But it doesn’t mean that i should just let things happen…hindi naman pwedeng aasa ka lang dahil may plan naman sa iyo si Lord eh hanggang dun na lang ang efforts mo.

but tulad nga ng sbi mo, everything has a purpose nman..so kahit ganu ka-unreasonable for us im sure according nman un sa plan ni God….take care…God bless..=) will pray for you…=)

bjay

May 27th, 2008 by biochem06-treas

among all else, one thing i learned in med is that it will test you, not just academically but in every aspect of your life.

when you lose faith, you lose your purpose. when you lose your purpose, you lose your motivation. and when you lose your motivation, you lose your will…your will to do things and more importantly, your will to hope. though i didn’t say it was irreversible.

300

May 25th, 2008 by biochem06-treas

Also known as LOTR vs Gladiator in Troy, gets? Para siyang pinaghalong Lord of the Rings + Gladiator + Troy. haha! :D

This movie is oozing with:

1. raw maleness –> ehem ehem

2. 6-pack abs and firm muscles –> ganda nilang gawing specimen sa anatomy

3. asteeg na mga lines at moves –> daming cool na slow-mo

4. dead bodies –> talo pa nito horror movies, pramis!

So all-in-all, i like this movie.

insecurities

May 23rd, 2008 by biochem06-treas

have you ever felt ugly? i’m not kidding. people may see me as very gifted, very talented, almost have everything there is, rich kid (which i’m not)… but you know, there are times when i just wish for someone to be with me. i feel that what i have is not enough for someone who i like, to be with me.

just today, i saw a couple which made me wish i had something like that. company. love.

don’t get me wrong. i’m surrounded with people who dearly love me: my family and my friends, and people who care about me without me knowing. let me just go straight to the point: there’s a time when i think, it’s lonely being single.

sometimes i ask God, why do i end up with the jerks? don’t get me wrong, they may be nice in some sort of way, but they are liars. and i hate liars. i hate them because i think i don’t deserve to be lied to. i don’t deserve to be deceived. and i think nobody does.

you meet a guy who you really really really like. you know he notices you too but suddenly, you feel as if it’s all a dream, that he can’t really be looking and noticing you. he can’t really be liking you too. you…the short, non-petite, un-cute, un-pretty, un-sexy, the one who looks older than her age, the one who asks so many questions (curiosity killed the cat), the one who is a super die-hard romantic, who likes to daydream, who is super makulit, pasaway, who thinks about you 24/7, who needs to remind herself to love and like wisely, who needs to tell herself not to mix medicine and commitments, who promised not to have any commitments while studying medicine…why would he notice you? why would he look at you? why would he like you?

i guess, despite my track record which i am so proud of, i still am a normal human being: experiencing moments where i feel weak, vulnerable, not trusting my own qualities, my own attributes, my own uniqueness.

darn. i hate experiencing these moments.